By Turning My Tears Into Prayers

Did you hear it? What? The tear drop that just fell. Yes. Why do you ask?  Because I feel more coming...Well let them come My Child...I've been waiting to catch your tears...

Tears...so quiet but full of life & power...

"Those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy!" Psalm 126:5 (ESV)

Have you ever thought, what are tears?  Let me just give you a brief explanation of what tears are in the medical world.  Tears are drops of clear saline solution also called lacrimal secretions.  The lacrimal gland of the eye continually releases tears within the eye.  Lacrimal fluid contains mucus, antibodies, and lysozymes (an enzyme that destroys bacteria).  With the increase of these secretions, they serve to wash away or dilute irritating substances within the eye.  *Side note: Only humans shed tears suggesting that crying is important in reducing stress.

Often times people view tears as a sign of weakness.  I beg to differ on this.  Maybe they begin in a moment of weakness but I feel like they are signs of strength about to rise or be released.  Over the years I have shed many tears: the good, the bad, and the ugly.  Tears of despair, joy, fear, hurt (emotional), pain (physical), freedom, refreshing, and new life.  My response to these tearful moments haschanged from a negative one to a positive one.  The Lord has helped allow me to not hold them back so much (this is still a process for me).  He said..."It is through your tears that others will be ministered to."

As Romans 8:26 says, "Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness.  For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words."  Man, what a change in my perspective on these silent "things."  I have grown from just crying to praying through the tears.  And when the waves of tears build up and I can not speak, I cry silent tears which touch my Heavenly Father's heart.  He knew they were coming, he was just waiting for me to just let go and let the releasing begin.

And so I end with these lyrics from a song called 'Silence' by Anthony Evans.  These words have often times been my heart's cry...

"Questions left unanswered feels like my prayers are hitting these walls.  So I'm left here wondering if you can still hear me, hear me at all?  I've been here so long that my faith is getting weak, so I just have to believe.  Maybe you're speaking through the silence, maybe it's all I need to hear.  Give me the patience in its quiet, I need to rest here and be okay...to wait..."

 Holding on with expectancy,

Crystal